Busy Mind

I am feeling

a little bit low today

but it's nothing special.

It happens once in a while

so I will just not think about it.

I also won't

try to be cheerful 

just for the sake 

of being cheerful though.

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I've been thinking 

a lot

these days.

I guess some people

believe that thinking 

too much isn't good. 

Sometimes, it's true

thinking too much

isn't going to take you

anywhere.

But sometimes,

it is important that 

you let your mind wander off

and let it do 

what it got to do.

Ever since I was a child,

I've always tended to think 

about things too much

and it's something 

that will probably 

never change about me.

It's difficult to say

what I am thinking about

but, I know what I am 

trying 

to think about.

I am trying to think about 

the time to come.

I have re-discovered 

something that I've always liked,

something that 

I didn't really see clearly

while I was in college. 

It's weird,

because 

I knew that I enjoyed it

when I was in high school.

 Maybe college is just a time

you get lost.

You drown in the wave of interests

and curiosities

and you forget what you used to care for.

...and I also 

know some people 

finally discover their passion

during the college year.

I don't know which I am.

A mixture of both,

I think.

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Say, even IF I don't find 

any further than this 

here in Thailand,

I know it was worth my time. 
 

Because, like I said,

I've re-discovered something

very important to me.

... and because the time
I am spending here 
is simply very precious. 

Does this entry sound

depressing or is it hopeful?

I can't really tell.

I don't intend to be either, 

just writing down my thoughts...

Good night.