Paris, Texas

Here is another 

 film that 

I highly recommend.

Paris Texas (1984)

 ☆☆☆☆☆

I started to realized 

 I love films 

 that don't tell 

you the exact ending.

The stories 

go on in your 

own imagination.

It's up to me 

how to interpret.

No happy ending,

 but not neccesarily 

 a sad ending. 

 

I guess 

in a way,

everybody's life 

is like that.

You can die happily

but you can die happily,

with a little bit of

bitter past

...or something 

like that.

So a film

that ends in 

a neither 

sad or happy state,

for me is

more believable

...and beautiful.

It also makes 

me think about it 

over and over 

for the next 

few days after 

I watch it.

Well, 'Paris, Texas' 

will surely make 

me do that.

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...and some photos 

from my Sunday walk.

(which is just a random walk 

I like to take 

when I feel inspired.)

Many houses 

have cool tiles here.

It looks like 

a fire work, doesn't it?

Shadow Art

  

Fusion.

Your Voice Brings Breeze to Thailand

A friend of mine 

from high school

made a song,

and I would like to share 

her lovely voice with you.

I think her voice has 

power to cleanse 

people's heart

and make it all 

pure and soft.

Have you noticed?

she made this song

using an entry from my past blog. 

I was just thinking today

about lyrics,

and how difficult 

it is to make one.

What a coincidnece, 

she made a song

using my words.

I never thought 

that my words 

were lyrical, 

so it is nice to know that

somebody felt 

differently about it.

For those who want 

to know more about this 

lovely lady 

with sweet voice,

here is her link....

http://www.myspace.com/hiyokomame235

How wonderful 

it is 

to be able to 

inspire somebody 

this way....!

 Thank you Fu-chan.

ありがとね。

Purple Pearl

I have been reading a lot

(compare to how I was before)

I don't think I've enjoyed reading this much

when I was in college.

I think my brain is craving stimulus

and knowledge

and since I am not in school anymore,

I guess I naturally pick up some books to

satisfy the craving.


The sad thing is,

books in Thailand are so expensive.

tsk tsk.

Another thing that I've been enjoying:

to create things with bottles and wires

and other random things that inspire me.

Right now, I am mainly making

wall-hanging bases for plants

but I think I need to think of other things

since our hanging space is so limited.

Or, if I become good enough

maybe I can start a business.

How about 20 baht for each base?

(...that is about 80 cents)

So guess who came to visit us in Chiang Mai?

tada.

(... Leonardo!)

and more tada.

(...April!!)

...and I also got to meet her older brother too.

Really, really

such a good timing.

I wish both of you could stay longer

but I won't complain.

I got to see you.

On the way to Doi Suthep.

I think Chiang Mai needs to rain,

or I need to go to Doi Suthep

once a week to have fresh air....

I have been also enjoying growing greens

and veggies.

(....no harvest yet.)

And me enjoying gardenless-gardening is

a good excuse for me to have fresh coconut treat

since the shell of a coconut is

a perfect pot for plants.

I am growing a ring...

well, not really

but have you ever seen the seeds of cilantro?

Yes, the pearly purple beads are the seeds.

Aren't they pretty?

I think that was my favorite discovery of the day,


Another surprise was that

the beaded ring Leonardo brought back for me

from Indonesia had the same color as the seed.

It made me smile.

I can't wait to have fresh cilantro.

I'm crossing my fingers though,

since I don't have a green thumb.

We are also growing bird peppers.

If they grow well,

they are supposed to look like

colorful birds.

....and also some Holly Basil.

(I know I spelled "Holly Bazil" on the tag.)



...Okay, this place is closing down

so I will say bye for now.

shimokitazawa

During summer and winter break

when I was back in Japan,

I used to not

tell my old friends that I was back.

I was kind of scared to see

how people would react seeing

how much I had changed.

'Change' meaning that I wasn't 90 lbs anymore.

The truth is that

I like myself right now better

but I wasn't sure if my old friends

felt the same.

I guess, in a way,

while I was struggling with anorexia,

I constantly had this feeling of guilt

that I was lying to my friends and to myself.

I never felt like I showed who I was

or let myself to be who I was.

It's just recently

that I started to accept my past

and tell my friends that I was mentally ill.

I haven't told everybody yet,

but it's not a problem for me anymore,

I can laugh and tell you about

everything that I was going through.

Shimokitazawa is a place where I used to go

almost everyday after high school.

It was my favorite

shopping/wandering around spot.

After not seeing each other for 5 years,

me and my friend from junior high

went out drinking in Shimokitazawa.

We talked about music and art and

about the junior high days

and we both agreed that it was fun time.

I think we're getting old...

We both used to be almost straight-A students

....up until Junior high.

Alas...what had happened.

P.S. 5 days more days.