Busy Mind

I am feeling

a little bit low today

but it's nothing special.

It happens once in a while

so I will just not think about it.

I also won't

try to be cheerful 

just for the sake 

of being cheerful though.

***********************

I've been thinking 

a lot

these days.

I guess some people

believe that thinking 

too much isn't good. 

Sometimes, it's true

thinking too much

isn't going to take you

anywhere.

But sometimes,

it is important that 

you let your mind wander off

and let it do 

what it got to do.

Ever since I was a child,

I've always tended to think 

about things too much

and it's something 

that will probably 

never change about me.

It's difficult to say

what I am thinking about

but, I know what I am 

trying 

to think about.

I am trying to think about 

the time to come.

I have re-discovered 

something that I've always liked,

something that 

I didn't really see clearly

while I was in college. 

It's weird,

because 

I knew that I enjoyed it

when I was in high school.

 Maybe college is just a time

you get lost.

You drown in the wave of interests

and curiosities

and you forget what you used to care for.

...and I also 

know some people 

finally discover their passion

during the college year.

I don't know which I am.

A mixture of both,

I think.

*******************

Say, even IF I don't find 

any further than this 

here in Thailand,

I know it was worth my time. 
 

Because, like I said,

I've re-discovered something

very important to me.

... and because the time
I am spending here 
is simply very precious. 

Does this entry sound

depressing or is it hopeful?

I can't really tell.

I don't intend to be either, 

just writing down my thoughts...

Good night.

Caffeinated

On Sunday, 

I found a cafe 

called 

Caffeine Fix

 

 It's a stylish 

 cozy little cafe.

 

If you go there, 

try 

Banana Mango Shake!

℡　0-5332-7204

109 Prapokklao Rd.,

T.Sriphoom,

Muang Chiang Mai 

...and today,

I found another 

lovely place called 

Libernard Cafe

℡ 0-5387-4377

36 Chaiyaphoom Rd.

Apparently,

it is a pretty well 

known place 

because it is on

Lonely Planet.

Although since I don't 

read guide books, 

I didn't know 

anything about the place.

I just came across

while walking around 

the Old City.

Pee pong, the lady 

who runs the place was 

so nice

she brought me 

an ice coffee,

(which I ordered)

a latte,

and a shot of espresso.

So now I am hyper caffeinated. 

We chatted for 

about 2 hours.

She was a fun lovely person.

Her husband 

Noi 

(I hope I spelled his name right)

roasts the coffee at the shop.

All the beans are from 

Chiang Mai. 

I really love 

how much pride and joy 

they find in what they do.

We bought a bag of beans, 

I am excited to try it

tomorrow morning!

Pee Pong strongly 

believes that 

good coffee is good for 

mind and body. 

The name 

Libernard comes from 

her belief 

that coffee liberates people's

minds,

which I totally understand.

I was surprised

when she said 

she thinks that coffee 

lets people open up their minds 

and be social. 

Yes, I think so too.

Very very much.

 

A place with good vibe

invites good people in.

Even cats and a dog 

came in. 

I feel like things are getting 

better and better.

well, anyways

if you get a chance

I highly recommend this place.

Very cozy and relaxing.

It makes your heart

comfortably warm.

(I won't say just 'warm'

because Chiang Mai 

is hot as is these days)

...Okay.

 Enough talking for the day.

Ciao!

 

Paris, Texas

Here is another 

 film that 

I highly recommend.

Paris Texas (1984)

 ☆☆☆☆☆

I started to realized 

 I love films 

 that don't tell 

you the exact ending.

The stories 

go on in your 

own imagination.

It's up to me 

how to interpret.

No happy ending,

 but not neccesarily 

 a sad ending. 

 

I guess 

in a way,

everybody's life 

is like that.

You can die happily

but you can die happily,

with a little bit of

bitter past

...or something 

like that.

So a film

that ends in 

a neither 

sad or happy state,

for me is

more believable

...and beautiful.

It also makes 

me think about it 

over and over 

for the next 

few days after 

I watch it.

Well, 'Paris, Texas' 

will surely make 

me do that.

***********************

...and some photos 

from my Sunday walk.

(which is just a random walk 

I like to take 

when I feel inspired.)

Many houses 

have cool tiles here.

It looks like 

a fire work, doesn't it?

Shadow Art

  

Fusion.

little something

So I have 

a little news!

I've been offered 

to write for a Japanese 

magazine 

in Chiang Mai. 

I will be 

writing about 

cafes in Chiang Mai,

and it will be 

in the magazine 

along with 

my photos. 

This is great.

I get to do

two different kinds of 

writing.

I will see 

how far I can go.

 Wish me luck. 

Yes?

 

 

By the way,

oh boy,

I am so broke!

I am living off on

a can of sardines.

oh well, 

no biggies.

Ciao!

Your Voice Brings Breeze to Thailand

A friend of mine 

from high school

made a song,

and I would like to share 

her lovely voice with you.

I think her voice has 

power to cleanse 

people's heart

and make it all 

pure and soft.

Have you noticed?

she made this song

using an entry from my past blog. 

I was just thinking today

about lyrics,

and how difficult 

it is to make one.

What a coincidnece, 

she made a song

using my words.

I never thought 

that my words 

were lyrical, 

so it is nice to know that

somebody felt 

differently about it.

For those who want 

to know more about this 

lovely lady 

with sweet voice,

here is her link....

http://www.myspace.com/hiyokomame235

How wonderful 

it is 

to be able to 

inspire somebody 

this way....!

 Thank you Fu-chan.

ありがとね。

List of Films New and Old

Some films 

I really liked...

- Bagdad Cafe 

(I really really 

love this one)

☆☆☆☆☆

- Drugstore Cowboy

☆☆☆☆

- My Life Without Me 

☆☆☆☆

- Napoleon Dynamite 

(I really like how the 

nerdy kids get to 

have a happy ending)

☆☆☆☆☆

- Public Enemy

(Sad sad sad but 

beautiful)

☆☆☆☆☆

- No Country For Old Men 

(suspensful,sad 

and beautiful)

☆☆☆☆

- Rumble Fish 

(I enjoyed the visuals,

story-wise,

not so interesting)

☆☆☆☆

思うこと

あんまり朝早くに外出とか

しないんだけど、

たまに用事があって

外出ると、

みんな、屋台を準備してたり、

お店のまわりを掃除してたり、

ところどころにある

ミニチュア版みたいな

お寺に

お供えもの出してたり、

お祈りしていたり…

私は、こんな光景を見る時に

なんだか

すごく感動するんだよね。

日本人みたいに、

セカセカ働くわけではないんだけど、

なんか、タイの人の

『これが私の人生です』

みたいな、諦めじゃないけど

現実を受け入れてるところかな、

なんだろ、

そんなところが、すごく好き。

屋台を出してる人たちは、

必ずと言ってもいいほど、

テレビも持ってきていて、

お客さんがいないときは、

ボーっとテレビ見て…

なんだろうね、

『頑張るぞ、おー！』

みたいなところは

全然感じられないけど、

『まあ、今日もボチボチ行こうか。』

みたいなところに、

自分にはない

強さを感じるんだよね。

国民性の違いって、

面白い。

どこの国が一番エライとか

そんなのは、

比べられるハズはなくって…

世の中には色んな生き方が

あるんだな、

って

…なんというか、

励まされる感じ。

私には、

タイの人みたいな生き方は

とうてい無理だけど、

テレビはあんまり好きじゃないし、

毎日同じ風景を

見るのも

飽きちゃうし、

でも、学ぶことは沢山あるよね。

 今まで、変化ばかり

求めてきた私だけど、

うーん、

なんか、少しだけ

見なかったものが

見えてきた気がするよ。

続きあがあるのかは、

知らないけど、

この続きは、また後ほど。